Ekla Chalo Re

Jodi tor đak shune keu na ashe tôbe êkla chôlo re,


Êkla chôlo, êkla chôlo, êkla chôlo, êkla chôlo re.

Jodi keu kôtha na kôe, ore ore o ôbhaga,

Jodi shôbai thake mukh firaee shôbai kôre bhôe—

Tôbe pôran khule

O tui mukh fuţe tor moner kôtha êkla bôlo re.

Jodi shôbai fire jae, ore ore o ôbhaga,

Jodi gôhon pôthe jabar kale keu fire na chae—

Tôbe pôther kãţa

O tui rôktomakha chôrontôle êkla dôlo re.

Jodi alo na dhôre, ore ore o ôbhaga,

Jodi jhôŗ-badole ãdhar rate duar dêe ghôre—

Tôbe bojranôle

Apon buker pãjor jalie nie êkla jôlo re.

If they answer not to thy call walk alone,


If they are afraid and cower mutely facing the wall,

O thou unlucky one,

open thy mind and speak out alone.

If they turn away, and desert you when crossing the wilderness,

O thou unlucky one,

trample the thorns under thy tread,

and along the blood-lined track travel alone.

If they do not hold up the light when the night is troubled with storm,

O thou unlucky one,

with the thunder flame of pain ignite thy own heart

and let it burn alone.

What’s your greatest fear at this time in your life ...i ask myself ....the answer is that i may not be able to establish that connection with anyone and then i might end up being the only witness to my life . That i might never find the one to share this beautiful journey with , which by the way is already almost three decades.


Being Indian and the institution of marriage being so important to us i have had some priceless experiences that are worth writing about. These instances have been usually about most people preaching the importance of getting married at the “right time “ , “right age” to Mr. Imperfect because you see life with its imperfections has not created a Mr. Perfect at all and therefore that itself most obviously then establishes the fact that there is no reason whatsoever to believe that one should even strive towards getting married to the “right person”.

I would have loved to give a verbatim account of my conversations with the experienced well-wishers in my life, but inorder to maintain the flow , i will stick to the tense.

I will start with the most ridiculous of all marriage sermons in my next post.

Reciprocation of Love

I recently started dating this guy , he asked me out to dinner one night and we started going out thereafter . Things were good until things started changing in a really short period of time ..the initial period which is suppose to be overwhelmingly dopamine laden was actually beginning to feel insipid.


I have this nagging feeling time and again that i can never make relationships last . In all my relationships except one i have not known what is a reciprocation . And in that one in which the guy did fall for me i felt nothing for him.

He is my frame of reference for understanding how you can feel so many things for a person but they might feel nothing for you. I used to have trouble understanding this and i would take it really personally because i failed to grasp this detail. I still take it rather personally that i am usually more hung up on someone i like or am going out with . i guess its a personality trait ; that i have for a long time in my life denied .

It is hilarious when you look at it from the outside how i can get so attached to men i date ...i mostly only date men who i am really interested in ......but mind you i am so far from clingy but in my mind each time i just know wehre i am headed. Just when i am so totally sure of my indispensability in my boy friend’s life i get dumped..well not verbally but surely in action. And then my long drawn procedure to get over the person . Those heartaches ..like i mean physical heartaches. Like this guy i was dating recently told me how he will be buying a dress for his ex-girl friend for her bday inspite of the ex factor. And i was like man!! What a lucky girl!! There could be so many layers to a relationship like that , that it will render me luckier anyday any minute but this my first reaction to something like that ....“why me” is the voice of reason.
So much so that there are moments where a large part of me now believes that this aspect of my life is never going to work out . And then a counter argument surfaces in my head i.e. if all these men i have been with were totally into me ,would i really still be with them .The answer is no.

Each day my mind is full of thoughts ; random thoughts..........but there is always one overwhelming recurring thought that  stays.It trickles in ..it flows out ...if you force it out ..it forces its way back into the mind.

Through different phases in my life there have been these thoughts. In my blog here i will be writing down that dominant thought.

 if you can relate to this .....well! all that i can say is "each one of our aspirations are exactly as different as we let our egos believe.." truth is we are all living the same theory of the absurd.

What will make this worthwhile is that some of you who read this might take up writing their thoughts ...for some this might be their thoughts in my words.